:) never gives up~ ;)

            Hmmm~ well I don't have a crush right now.. But i liked him. His the same college as me but not crush just liked.. :) but when i was in high school. I fall in love in first sight with this someone. His really kind and gentle. He always talk to me when i'm alone or bored. I can't tell his name though~ LOL XDD well, suddenly when i was about to tell him my feeling towards him then he already got a pair. I was really sad, my heart was liked..something or someone stabbed me. I cried all night..coz i couldn't tell him how i felt. hahaha..it was really hurting~ his girlfriend was one of my friend in my class. But even so he already coupled.. he still talked with me and laugh with me everyday. He was really kind. Then he asked to go out with him and his girlfriend for bowling. I said that i can't..but he insist to. He forced me to go. I really don't know why he forced me to go with him. But my answer still no. His expression was kinda sad. Then at school, on Hari Kantin day~ I was forced again by him to go and try the haunted house. His girlfriend coming along too. While we we're lining up. There's a senior watching me.. i was liked " okay why the heck he stared at me. Maybe he stared at someone else" I said still lining up.
             But that senior kept staring and staring then when i looked at him. He looked away. I was suprised~ but ignored him. Then when we already went for the haunted house.. i was screaming like hell. When we get out, i was looking for "him" but he was dealing with his girlfriend who was crying. His girlfriend really can't stand any of that. So i leave them alone for awhile. Then the senior pass by me and he suddenly smiled at me. I was surprised and blushed!! O///O heheh..it was really a shocking moment. That senior was the captain for Police cadet. He was awesome captain and funny~ :) but i still stick to "him". cos it was love first sight right. I couldn't forget about him and his name until now. I always think does he love me or not. Just like i love him. It was a question marked. So i don't know the answers.
             Then i heared a shocking news from him. He have to change to another school in Kedah or kelantan. He said he wants me to come to his girlfriends place for his celebration. Well it was his last wish and i never go out with him. well yeah i accept. He said he wants to tell me something but that time wasn't the right time. I have to go back early. He was really sad and me too~ I sent him a message and he said it's ok.. at least we can still see each other someday and sms together too. I'll always contact you, he said. but until now he didn't sms me or called me. i tried to call him but he change his phone number and didn't tell me. he promised but he break it. but i'm still searching for him though. I tried typing his name on facebook, twitter, everything. but still no luck~ hahaha ;) hope he still alive out there~ hehehehe ;)

             I'm still going to search for him and pray so that i can see him.i want to know what was he was going to tell me. hehehe He was the first person to ever talk to me really nice and I liked.... no....love him so much.... :). I still remember his name and his memory~ ;) hahaha... my eyes are getting wet~ hahahaha... ;) well that's all hope it's satisfied you all~  T^T